FML — today was suppose to be our two years and one month. the lyrics surrounded us. smh.
damnit
gahh, we were talking about getting annoying, and i think i was the most annoying girlfriend ever, i know how i tackled things were SO immature, man i don’t kow how you handled me, gahhh, man i hate myself for bugging you, gah, hate these late night thoughts.
in a heartbreak, i’d said yes. time heals things, it lets us have time to know what we want in life, and it’s you.
11:49 and 3:21 —
I don’t know if you know this, but no matter how much hope I lost, I still wish. I’m still here, it’s just sad you aren’t.
wait, i still have hope eff that.
i want you back.
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the days when it was just you and me, i miss that, i miss all of it and now i’m crying from the stress at school and you. i hate this.
day DCCXXXV.
you have no idea how much i’m trembling at the fact that you’re gone.i think about you everyday. i stay up just hoping for things, usually i would do something but i’m stopping myself from regret. i want to go up to you, hold you SO TIGHT, and make sure you know by that, that i’ve always loved you. its has always been you, i was so naive. i’m so stupid, but now i’ve changed. everything about me that was so negative. i’m such a better person and you know how i know, i feel it. i feel myself like a part of my family, i take care of everyone around me, i respect my parents, i dont follow my friends advice, but i listen and i decide on my own. i’m doing my own thing in hopes of not forgetting us, but living on something that changed me for good, you know no idea how much i needed that. i love you, i always will, but i know right now, while we are busy with school family and friend, we don’t have the time, of course i’ll make time, but i need to focus school is first, well just my little rant for today.
i’m still strong.
our date has passed. things changed. i’m not doing anything to change them because i’m doing my own thing. i miss you. it sucks. what can i do. happy birthday kid.
i hate.
how you do this to me, its like you got me wrapped around your finger, but slowly, i’m unwrapping myself, i’m becoming my own person, and i know i’m not going to let anyone change me. i know how i feel about you, i know what i want, its you, but your side is completely different, why don’t you tell me, then let me go. i don’t want to be there when you just need me. i did those things because…it made me feel, like us, US was there again, but maybe i’m wrong, not saying i’m right, but i’m putting effort without trying to annoy you, i’m doing enough, i text you when i think youre not busy, i try to talk to you like a simple conversation, and i’m not saying this is where i’m frustrated, its when i try to plan sometime with you from OUR busy schedules just to even see each other. to be honest, i miss you. i miss you how whenever i’m with you i don’t give a fuck, don’t give a shit whats going on (i do, but you know what I mean) but i dont give a fuck, i just got to spend one part of my week with you, and you know, it fillls me up. that day, ohh my that day, it hurts. it felt like it was us again, and you know, our date, our YEAR date is coming up and its starting to tare me apart, i’m trying to be strong, i’m trying to keep myself busy, LIVE MY LIFE, and hope you are too, but it does still hurt, i still have this place in here, my chest, for you, and it’ll always be open if everything in else in the world is trying to push it close, i’m fighting. i’m fighting every force from everyone just to keep you in my heart, and itisn’t the easiest thing to do. i love you, always will, just wondered if you’re willing to give us a chance again.
its been quite awhile.
To My Ex Girlfriends.
Its true much has changed. I’m glad we’ve both turned our backs and walked away. I never knew that the feeling of regret would just drift away as if it was never there. I feel as if i accomplished something. I am truely thankful for all the happy days we’ve spent together. Instead of calling you my ex girlfriend, i can finally call you my friend.
- josh
Dear Friend,
I very much agree with your words. I can always look back on our history, take it in and learn from everything that has happened, and use it to make life a tad bit better than before. Thanks for everything, you have no idea how much my life changed from losing you, it may have been one of the hardest things, but I learned. I learned life has its reasons why things happen, why we lose people, meet new people, and find new things to experience life, and I see it. It may be a surprise at times, but hey, life has it ways of making things up to us. Once again, thank you.
Eileen.
fuck.
i miss you, plain and simple, i try so hard not to text you, but i just want to know you’re okay, ill text you after this week, i miss you, not as a boyfriend, but as a friend, never thought i would go back to this, but its my secret page.
